Ikhlas

The result of T's and Kak Rian's upcoming operation will be two opposites. It will make Kak Rian better, but it will make my husband weaker. The other will be saved, the other will be - in a way - crippled. No matter how 'noble' it sounds, I still don't know how to feel about that.

What's more, this isn't a "Namanya juga takdir" case, because unlike - oh let's say, tabrak lari - Kak Rian's current condition is actually avoidable, if only some particular actions were taken in the past. If only, if only, if only. Hence, on some days, I can't even look at her husband and my in-laws, whom I secretly blame.

We can say 'ikhlas' hundreds of times, but it remains one of the hardest things to do in life.

While in Singapore: ArtScience Museum, Gardens by the Bay

Gusti memang Maha Mendengar.

Baru kemaren berkeluh kesah nggak diajak yalan-yalan elit di Singapore, keesokan harinya saya LANGSUNG diboyong ke kompleks Marina Bay sama suami, muahahaha! Padahal T nggak baca curhat terselubungku di blog ini lho. Komunikasi kalbu kali ya :')

The First Week

Hai, Lei! Udah di Singapur aja nih?

Iya, ih. Nggak kerasa, udah seminggu aja ngendon di Singafura. 

Tinggal dimana?

Empat hari pertama, kami masih nginep di hotel, trus baru gedubrakan pindah ke apartemen. I kinda have mixed feelings about our place. Senengnya karena apartemen kami ini keceee, bageeeus, cakeeeup #sombong. Fasilitas komplit, interiornya rapih dan modern, dan landlordnya baik bangeut. A Malay-Singaporean, yang ternyata kakak kelasnya Teguh waktu SMP disini, yeuk. Dan berbekal tali brotherhood almamater tersebut, kami dikasih bonus TV, horeee...

Memaknai Idul Qurban

Suami saya adalah anak ke-3 dari empat bersaudara. Kakaknya yang paling tua, Kak Rian (perempuan tapi, ya), mungkin adalah yang paling diuji Allah, karena beliau mengidap penyakit langka selama belasan tahun.